Looks like it's time for another Borealis re-read, for all the hope in it <3 I'm mostly just trying to hold on to gratitude this morning - mom left a message on my voicemail yesterday that she had "lost her memory" and if I could call her. I thought she meant her phone or computer or something. When I called back she said she couldn't remember part of the day or how she got home, she didn't know if she'd voted, she thought she'd fed my animals but wasn't sure, and asked if I was at home. Twice. O_o. Luckily my brother was home and lives five minutes away, and I called 911 from Texas while he drove over. (Did you know 911 in other states can't just transfer you to emergency dispatch in other states? They told me to call police non-emergency dispatch in Indy, which due to work I happily had memorized. Non-emergency then scolded me for not calling 911 if I thought my mom was having a stroke >_>)
Long story short, everything checked out fine at the emergency room, CT scan showed no sign of stroke, and mom sounded pretty much back to normal when I talked to her again. Most of her memory has come back, but she's missing some time - she was breaking up a pile of branches in my driveway to bundle up, and then nothing. Docs think it was probably transient global amnesia, which can be brought on by stress and overwork (like, hey, the election maybe? And breaking and sawing up branches is hard work, too). She's making an appointment with a neurologist, but usually it's a one time thing, no additional risk for stroke or dementia if that's what it was. I'm still sort of vibrating from shock, because she's so active and healthy and sharp, but cautiously starting to relax. That day will come, but not today, it's starting to look like.
Pull out all the big guns of self care today, my loves, and love and hug and baby animals and silly glorious and/or smutty fanfic and whatever else gives you joy. I'm in a good place here at my conference - the keynote speaker was all about the importance of teaching critical thinking skills and interpreting science in a way people understand, so they can make the best possible decisions. On the faces around me I see a lot of core deep determination - our jobs and our pupose are doubly important now. The ocean is deep, the stars are close enough to forever for everyday purposes, and I'm sitting here looking out across our deep beautiful ocean, with hermit crabs!! Check this little doober out, just chillin and watching the waves like I was. It's a beautiful world.